This has been the hardest time in a long time. I am struggling to get out of this endless loop of emotional chaos and feeling disconnected, angry, sad, and tired. My chest hurts, I feel like I am suffocating in this never-ending spiral down. Having fights with my thoughts between the good and the bad. It’s exhausting.
Talking to people makes me feel confused, as I feel like the words that come out of my mouth don’t make any sense compared to what is inside. And the reactions from the people I talk to are never the ones I would imagine, although I had learned a long time ago that no one would understand me anyway. My biggest struggle is to try and focus on my positive mindset, as I was doing fine just a month ago and before. Now, my world is dark, I watch all my past fly past me again and again. I feel trapped.

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